What a trip.
Seven weeks stateside.
Seven weeks nomadic.
Seven weeks of bliss-filled reunions, whole-hearted being and too-soon farewells.
Of shared breakfasts on lived-in screened porches,
And cupcakes near fresh water springs.
Of church hymns bellowed at unlikely hours,
Waist high in cool, deep-southern waters.
Of yoga, dockside, awake with only a very few fervent folks fishing,
Of backyard beers with 15-year friends, outnumbered by the sum of our offspring.
Of too many cooks in the kitchen
To ever grow tired of cooking.
Of too many small children screaming
For silence to ever feel awkward.
Of larger-than-usual laundry piles and chicken scrap bowls, overflowing.
And no care of the time, nor the place nor the day
Just so long as the kids have been fed.
Of realized dreams by talented friends
Like small farms that just might turn a profit.
And midwives and makers of beautiful sounds
Who get paid to do what they were made for.
Of mud-walled casitas, circa mid-1800s
Restored and made mindfully modern,
By capturing rains and harvesting sun
In lieu of rabbits or corn.
Of all four of my daughters, beneath one roof
Each one of them happy and thriving.
With opinions aplenty–feisty, headstrong,
And hardly a thing more in common.
So now that we’re home,
To the sand, to the waves
And the dishes, street tacos, our beds,
The concept of home has me head-in-hands-pensive,
Isn’t “home” that sweet place we just left?
Or is it the place we just moved from,
Our colonial, Maya-filled dream
Or maybe it isn’t a place, afterall
But a here-and-now, still state of being.
Because when I sit by a lake with these two,
I feel distinctly at home.
And when I wake to my folks sipping coffee,
I am home then, too.
With these boys by my side in a boat,
My home is afloat on the water.
And when this many dear old friends gather,
I’m at home, ankle-high in Bermuda.
Is it in me to love but not miss you?
Not to label the distance as “far”?
Because wanting is something I try not to do.
And judgments don’t serve me for much.
And when I’m beneath a Poinciana’s soft shade,
And she offers her sunset-hued blooms
And my knee-jerk response when you enter my mind
Is of longing or something akin,
The breeze will blow hot, not refreshing
And I’ll wish for a break from my kids
And I’ll long for my friends who help me make light
Of the burdens, and also to laugh.
But if I can hold you all close to my heart–
Send you love without needing you near
Then home is a place I cannot help but feel
And content, I’ll not want,
Life is there for the living! La Vida!
Beautiful! Does this mean you’re already back in Mexico &1 we’ve just missed each other?
Sure enough. There is always a sweet little handful of people we don’t get to see until next time. Bummer, I want to swap stories!!!
So perfectly said my beautiful sister 🙂
Thank you, Beth.
Over two months ago, my family moved 1000 miles away from me. I had to stay here for a while, but now it is almost time for me to go to where they are. But I don’t know where home is. I have more deep friendships and a community I feel a part of here, but I must go “back home” to be a father, and if God and Melanie will it, a husband. Wherever I go, I am invited to seek God and community and beauty and assured I will find. But I don’t get to hang on to the moment. Living in the moment means moving a lot. Each one passes, and gotta look for God and good people and joy again.
But the memories you shared are real, and mine will not all blow away on the wind. Thank you for reminding me of that.
Tell Hunter hi from me.